Two Years!!!

Dear Olivia:

I can't believe that today you are TWO! It seems like so long ago that I spent so many days crying because I so desperately wanted a child. You will never fully understand how badly your daddy and I wanted you!

But you have been strong willed and dramatic from the very beginning. You came in fighting and it's still a struggle of wills every day. I have a love/hate relationship with that. I love that you are so strong and that you have a mind of your own and that I am sure you will be a woman of confidence and leadership one day. But as your mom trying to get you to do things I want you to do - not so much loving it right now. :-) I think mostly because you are me all over again. You may look like your daddy but your personality is all me and it scares me a little! Your daddy will tell you I'm the most hard headed person he knows. And you must be second. ha!

Your smile lights up my life.You usually always greet me with a big smile and a "Hi mommy!". You have the sweetest personality and are so loving. You live to make us laugh and you are a true performer. There is a sparkle in your eyes that no money could ever buy. I pray that sparkle is always there!

Your daddy and I can't get enough of you. My favorite part of my day is every night when we go to bed and we never go to sleep without laughing and talking about you. I don't know what we ever did before we had you. You are not perfect but you are OURS! We adore you! I think you are the cutest thing I've ever seen in my life. I don't think I will ever kiss or hug you enough.

I can't wait to see what the next few weeks, months and years bring and to watch you grow and change. I know our days are numbered that we will have alone - just you and us. I'm trying to treasure my last few moments with you as my only child. But I know that you will adore your little brother or sister and I pray you will be best friends. I can't wait to watch you as a big sister. I pray that you will have good friends and life and that God will bring you a boy who will adore you. I want so much for you and I'm praying God makes me a better mother to you.

I hope one day you will read this and know just how much I love you. You probably won't understand it until the day that you have a little girl or boy of your own. And then you will realize how incredibly loved your were.

Happy Birthday precious girl! Momma loves you SO much!